Relationships

Do you want to be in a relationship?

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Aight, yes and no.

When I read my lovely cliches and watch my unrealistically cute movies, I get kinda grossed out. I mean, it's cute and all at first and i would love something like that, but it gets so unrealistic and mushy to the point where it grosses me out.

I kind of have an idea of what relationships are like based off of what some people I look up to say. It's tough. You're learning to love the good in a person (which isn't that hard) but also learning to love that bad parts of them too. The messy, gross, selfish side of them and that takes a heck lot of selflessness and unconditional love. 

It sounds all nice but when you really think about it, it's hard. It's hard enough to love ourselves when we look and see the horrible parts of our heart but to love someone else's as well? It's hard.

It's hard to give your 100% everyday for that person despite getting maybe 60% back because relationships aren't about how much the other person gives, it's about what YOU give and it's about giving your ALL. You can't go into one halfheartedly and expect It to last because it won't and that's hard. It's hard giving it your all.

It's hard getting through differences between you and your partner and finding your way through the foggy and murky waters. It's hard holding onto each other during the tough times.

Relationships are hard.

At the same time, it's beautiful. It's beautiful how you love someone so much and how you can notice small things about them, like how their eyes crinkle when they laugh or the way they furrow their eyebrows when they're deep in thought and it's beautiful. It's beautiful how they could hate the size of their nose so much or the way their dimples pop out when they smile, yet that could be what you love most about them. It's beautiful.

It's beautiful and hard, which is why my answer is yes and no.

But hey, the heck does a kid know about this stuff anyways.